Soul Devouring!

Yes, that is the title and yes, that is how I feel. At least after my most recent escapade, of going through a grueling interview process to get a pool manager job that I am more than qualified for. I've definitely came to realize that do your good will, work hard, and the universe has its path filled with signs that you are meant to run down. I thought this job would be it and maybe some slight chance it still is, but when I say it I don't mean career "it", I mean job to make some dough that I know how to do to eventually get to where I want to be, Oregon.

Its tough going through those interviews because the more I heard from what the people had to say who were interviewing me the more I disliked the idea of being there. Its not necessarily that these individuals are the devils workers sent here to do evil things to people or me. It is just that these people live, breathe, and crave the makings and doings of Las Vegas and in doing so have lost their sense of what it is to be human, modest, and humble. One statement made by them was how Las Vegas was at 14% unemployment rate and how they wouldn't hire most of them because they aren't good enough or qualified enough to work in their vision of quality. That statement touched home, my mother spent much time unemployed as am I now, so that statement felt like a knife be jabbed right into me and I have to sit there and pretend to agree with this person to get a job I wish I didn't have to do for people like that, people who just subconsciously put themselves on a higher pedestal. I want to say I can't and for the meantime I will, but unfortunately in the world we live, it will be very hard for me to pay my bills, eat food, and achieve my ultimate goal without some form of money. Gosh I must try and find another way, but I am running out of time.